A few weeks ago, I underwent surgery to eliminate all of the cancerous tissue in my uterus. Even though I was under full anesthesia, it was fairly quick as far as surgeries go, around an hour, and I was able to head home later that day. I was incredibly lucky and they were able to … Continue reading Tripping into peace
I’m just a girl – Diagnosing part 6 (Chronic Idiopathic Uticaria)
The term “hives” immediately brings to mind a body full of welts. I was always under the impression that they were caused by two things, anxiety or skin allergies. Growing up, I never suffered from hives or frequent rashes. My main allergy was/is dust. It causes my nose to run, eyes to itch, and a … Continue reading I’m just a girl – Diagnosing part 6 (Chronic Idiopathic Uticaria)
Logs on the fire
Four days ago, I was diagnosed with cancer. I’m still in shock. I had no symptoms or indicators. During my annual gynecological visit, they did a pap. It isn’t a requirement or even recommended to do a pap for every visit, but my doctor is diligent because of my chronic conditions and family history. A … Continue reading Logs on the fire
Sustain-able
Can any of us live “sustainably” with a chronic illness? I aspire to leaving a small carbon footprint. The IG-worthy images of reusable and minimalist lifestyles appeal to me. The idea of living light and making a more positive than negative impact on my surroundings… that all feels very right. Unfortunately, those desires tend to … Continue reading Sustain-able
Invisible proof
What you didn’t know, was that you would spend the rest of your life trying to convince people that you are broken. Even as you wrestle with the daily mindfuck that is surviving with invisible conditions, people need you to prove your pain and symptoms. Your word isn’t enough. Descriptions of any detail will never … Continue reading Invisible proof
Eddie would go
I had the blessing of a childhood tightly intertwined with nature. Instead of days spent with a television babysitter or smartphone appendage, I was nearly always outdoors. Rain, shine, or storm I was outside with only my imagination, friends, and ingenuity. The reason I’m highlighting my relationship with growing up in a nature-filled life, is … Continue reading Eddie would go
So many sorrys
We’ve been apologizing for as long as I can remember. Saying sorry to anyone who happens to see you on a hard day. Cowering to the people who consider our existence an inconvenience. Trying to soothe the awkwardness of those around us when we are flaring. From the first time I was brought into the … Continue reading So many sorrys
Lady like me
The complexities of being a biological female dealing with chronic pain and illness are innumerable. This isn’t to say that other gender identities don’t struggle with similar issues. Everyone’s struggle is real. There are no flat roads in any of our health journeys. These are just some of the particular areas where women face constant … Continue reading Lady like me
Walk this way
Much of Europe has notoriously tiny roads. The age of their infrastructure means that cobblestones, tight alleyways, and unleveled sidewalks are commonplace. The same can be said for many other parts of the world. Things are even less user-friendly in rural and underfunded communities. Bumpy dirt paths, potholes the size of small planets, and worn … Continue reading Walk this way
Keep up!
It is one of the toughest times of the year for many people… the holidays. Throw a little 2020 chaos into the mix. Add a dash of pandemic. Twist in economic collapse. There’s nothing peaceful and easy about this ending. Currently, I live in America. This is the season (pretty much October through January) of … Continue reading Keep up!
Always Bent Sometimes Broken 